scroll down << ontological control you project onto me what it is that you want from me but i m not here for that no no i m not here for that no ( i m not here to be ) a vision of what you think i ought to be a messed up internal seize an attack on being ( i project onto you ) what it is that i have been through it’s not fair no no it’s not fair no i don’t want to erase you in my process of going through projecting onto you things that i don’t see clearly through ya ya ya you don’t know and ya you’re never gonna know ya you don’t know and ya you’re never gonna know ya the plastic layer is so thin and vulnerable that it is impossible to continue the present evolution intersection of axes shadows as evidence recreating rhythm of image in-sequence Mk84 on Gaza August 1, 2014 (USA) once we were artists silo knowledge of discipline movement and scale of genocide spectrograms and dutch press the plastic layer is so thin and vulnerable that it is impossible to continue the present evolution there is only rooftops and heat lethargic bodies disorientated minds and sunsets that tear and mend you apart a slow gradient i am wondering sky how do you change your colors birds fly overhead the parrots in packs green and blending into the trees i have been alone loneliness is less when i sit with the sky and the birds and the heat and the neighborhood and wonder how and why i have ended up right here - heemstraat the enchantment hells not so bad when you’re in it together its all perspective extreme displeasure am i wrong to say the words that comes into my mind ya am i wrong to say the words that come into my mind the enchantment fluorescent grime body under stress body under stress body under stress nervous hurt neck stomach quasi stomach quasi out of out of options just going with with with it going with it its happening apotheek signs to health crawling skins imaginary contagions crawling in out crawling in our in out our skin is not touching but contagion conjoins us crawling itching the the urge to itch itch it. is bad. we are fine. bad is not. hello to hell o o o o o o o o o o o o wholes there are holes he is holy there is a one a someone (who is not a one) who when i think i think i think i should not think when i do i start to feel these things and recall a time we sat in that place did a lot of nothing sat read ate talk rest maybe scared maybe still waiting for the next wind to blow us through the house the wind blew through the house an understanding that many not be understandable binds i know of an empty house and i thought of you fluorescent grime shape detection image may contain shadow of sorrow kissing my heart sometimes nothing happens we are what is seized by intensities bodies pull to communicate in uncertainty nothing happens sometimes post-mimetic youth when put into the system it fails to be registered correctly who are you this indeterminacy foraging for ourselves igniting ecstasy euphoria felt post-mimetic youth mimetic interface - pleasure dictate material rages for inconsistent pages peripheral diffusions all of these intrusions aggressions confusions aesthetic arrays before beauty had anything to say self-satisfied prophetized profitized infinite displays using language as its framework for play mimetic interface - pleasure dictate layers of sand dance the rain is coming again for a long walk i'll be back fraudulent behavior be your own savior! s/o the adventurers den haag utrecht + rotterdam 2019 ontological control>>